Sunday, November 13, 2011

Sadiq Al-Mahdi's view on the Youth and Sudan

On Saturday November 12, 2011 hundreds of Sudanese in the Washington, DC metropolitan area had the opportunity to hear Sadiq Al-Mahdi speak about Sudan, its political state today, and remind those who are throughout the Diaspora, that Sudan is in danger. About 10 people had the opportunity to ask questions, and luckily I was one of them. I noticed I was one of the youngest amongst the crowd. I figured that I'm not as historically knowledgable about the politics of Sudan as 90% of the attendees were, but I believed I should generate a question addressing my generation and especially the youth amongst the western countries. I was the last one to ask a question and my question was the last to be answered. I introduced myself as Ahreej Elzubeir Osman Eltayeb, and I'd say many people of the audience recognized my name because of my father, or maybe because of my avid activities throughout the community. Facing 300+ people, I asked my question very casually, and explained to them (all in english) that


I am no scholar in the historical politics of Sudan, and nor do I expect myself to be a politician in the future, however I recognize my role as a Sudanese-American, and I'm Sudanese before I am an American, and I can not disregard the issues afflicting Sudan at this point. My question is how can we, as the younger generation, outside of Sudan, help uplift our country? What can we do to implement change?

And his response (translated) is:

Sadiq Al-Mahdi:


I can see that you have the passion of a Sudanese although you are from the west, the youth must have the philosophical and historical understanding of what is Sudan. We must “reclaim” our youth to be truly conscious and aware of Sudan. As you may already know, there has been a very bad reputation of Sudan recently, and many now don’t want to even bother listening about Sudan; Genocides, wars, famines, etc and for that reason, many of the younger generations become discouraged to even get involved in the issues of Sudan or to learn more about their own country and would say “We don’t even want Sudan.” Yes, Sudan truly has a bad reputation nowadays, but we as the older generations, need to convince them that The Sudan is good. And how to convince them, is a very important point.  I now have a book title (transliteration) “Ayuha Aljeel” This book targets the youth that are born outside of Sudan. Although I see that she (Ahreej) has a true passion of being Sudanese, however I’ve encountered many people outside of Sudan from Oxford, England, to Swayd, Egypt and the youth who reside in these cities have the same genes of their parents but do not speak the same language, they would say “we are different people living in the same home, our philosophical understandings are completely different.”  And for that we must build this house of cultivated knowledge for our youth to build a true and sincere interest towards The Sudan.

Another point, there is no doubt that the younger generations outside of Sudan have a key role, we should have the youth and also women become involved only to a certain and particular extent within the political parties, not to have their own societies or political organizations but have a few youths and women to be partially involved in politics. However, there are roles for the youth outside these political parties, and they become extremely active, like you’ve seen recently how they establish rallies in this Arab region, rallies promoting for democracy, and they find that passion to make change and start movements, and I personally believe that’s really good. Because I am of one whom believes, if a mother or father try to force upon their children a certain life or view upon life, they will rebel against them, so they must be a way of independence for these younger generations, so that in the future they will have true roles, and if you don’t do that, then your children will become a reflection of you but in a different generation and different predicament, which becomes dangerous. And for that you must give them a sense of freedom and to realize they are members of this Sudanese Society. In concluding, I appreciate Ahreej’s passionate spirit of her Sudanese heritage and her addressing this point.

Monday, September 26, 2011

My Scars.

My scars

I wear them proudly on this exterior of mine that defines me to the world, feel the desiccation of the blood, resembles my pride.
This one? On my right arm or the one under my chin,
I love this one on my knee a permanent memory of my childhood restless soul diagnosed with attention disorder yes that's who I am, this scar resembles my psychological impairment
Or this one, passion deep passion of overwhelming love expressed in pain oh the pain which becomes absented by the stories behind each darkly pigmented line on my body-
I ware it proudly, a priceless piece of clothing that I was either gifted or gave myself valuable in it's own nature.
But there lies a scar fearful to recap it's story, avoiding the sympathy of others and the sympathy I would express to myself with tears and screams of agony and the question, the questions of why me..
No it's completely fine, humans are animals right? It's how we are treated for consequences we don't deserve to face, right? Blood is in us to be seeped out, to be revealed to the world to test the amount of emotions, scare, tolerance we are capable to uphold..
Right?? Am I wrong? Have you not been treated this way?

I know she has, but her scar is deeply hidden , where only she can see with a mirror or by the one who left it, just because, he had an excuse tho , his rage and cold heart and he was blinded.. She said, he .. He was intoxicated, she repeats.

Or maybe like her in this far deserted isolated area , a scar on the breast that fed her 6 children she has melanin so beautifully dispersed on her skin like chocolate but there a piece of her protrudes over the infant helping himself with breakfast, then with his excitement of being full he tugs on her sleeve exposing yet another scar that repeats itself , glistening under the sun , "intruders with horses in all white" she blames "intruders that were so fast and skilled with spreading pain" her fear blinded her during their visit she would never know who gave her such a mark but she's not complaining as others fell victims to scars that are taken with them to the heart of the earth, she is fortunate and shows her scars proudly.

Then lies the scars this man carrying his culture on his forehead, reflecting his manhood , he clinched to the bed as they placed the knife bit by bit on his skin but he knew, he will stand and people will respond with respect , respecting this new transition of life and honoring his ancestry.

Or maybe him, a believer of his faith, laying his forehead 17 times a day towards the north east direction , there lies a pigment right on the middle of his forehead, right between and above his eyes, "it took me 20 or a little more to get it to be this big", he says, I've never been so proud of such a scar , "I'm a slave to him (Allah) and this mark I have resembles the soul I slaved for him."

Then comes the woman with wisdom expressed all over her body from a line to another, wrinkles of desiccated skin and her cheeks are interrupted by streaks that looked to be from her standing still letting the claws of a cat scratch deeply into her once youthful face, but it was what resembled beauty where she was from, from an era of ignorance where marks and spaced and pain were the metaphors to courageous beauty, but she feels them proudly and tails the stories of her past.


This mark of his hers and mine defines so much of what we are, strength courage tolerance and pride.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

I am a Muslim: A messenger to the world that fears us.


Screen collage of "Muslim Woman Offset" made by Artist Shepard Fairey distributed by OBEY GIANT


After Watching the CNN special "In Key American Muslim enclave, alienation is growing" I find it mind boggling the depth of misconceptualizing and misinterpreting Islam as a religion and the implementation of Sharia Law.

I've been asked questions about who I am, what I am, and where I'm from. Why do I not wear a Hijaab? What is the purpose of a Hijaab? Do you get beaten by the men in your family? why do I pray 5 times a day? why do I fast for a full month? and why do the months shift? What is the big black box in the Middle East? why don't you drink alcohol? Why can't you eat bacon? Ha , and my favorite one, Why can't you marry a non-muslim?


My thoughts before I answer has gone from "Have you not read a book? Do you not know anything other than christianity and/or judaism? why this Again?" to "Ahreej, simply answer their question, at least now they've learned more about your faith than they ever knew before".


But this wasn't even a conscious effort, I've found it to be a way of life. My name meant something different, it was then explained to be Arabic, which then triggered the connection of the Arab world to Islam, then the question of "If you don't mind me asking, what is your faith?" Then the series of questions that starts a hour (plus) long conversation..


So I've grown to be patient, careful, and as clear and elaborative as I can with my answers. I now realize that every Muslim in America has been given the duty of being a messenger of our faith to the world that fears us. We must uphold the image of spirituality, serenity and peace but most importantly patience. As written in the Qura'n , and what I tell myself mostly every day "Inna Allah Ma'aa Al-Saabereen" Meaning "God is with whom is most patient."


Then as the number of questions added up and my answers have become filled with more details, I've realized that this is a war, a war of acceptance. This is a subconscious competition of superiority of faith and religion. This is also fear. Those who fear are driven by anxiety of the unknown, driven by blinded anger, and those who fear are hollow, empty, and lack true value of knowledge. And those who have courage will have no fear.

Does that mean that most of the world is fearful and muslims have built this natural sense of courage? No, Muslims fear as well, but we don't fear the fear of the earth we fear the fear of not completing our tasks and duties we are obliged to as Muslims. We fear to have others fear us, because of our lack of true representation. We fear the disappointment of the Muslim victims of discrimination and fear the guilt of disregarding the pride we have as muslims, but most importantly we fear Allah's disappointment, and as his slave, being the messenger to the world that fears us, is the least I can do.


Saturday, February 5, 2011


Random Eye Candy



Gents: Filson Parkas Spring Season Collection '11

Gents: Spring Season 2011 derby boots.

Army Green and Dark Denim = Story of my Life.




I DIE for Chiffon Silk tops






Not so much pertaining to fashion, but I find this Neurological synapse and cellular interaction very artistic.


This is how I want to redecorate my office space.

Photography by Louise Dahl-Wolfe



"If I Ever Feel Better" Phoenix


Why Not?



All Black and a pinch of Red.
Why Not? BookMarc by Marc Jacobs

Vogue Cover June 1, 1947

Suzy Parker- Vogue, September 15, 1952


"One Cigarette , Two Lights" - Vogue April 15, 1950


Pink Socks

Fresh Brothers.

No for real, They're Twins.



Monday, November 8, 2010

Photoshoot: Sample Shots

So I've been meaning to expand my artistic photographic eye to photo-shoots, head shots, etc. Below are a few samples. David is a Teacher (Co-worker), rising Entrepreneur, and DJ. We worked on a few photos for a few flyers and business cards.

If interested, feel free to E-mail Me

Enjoy.






Saturday, November 6, 2010

Autmn: Photography Samples

Hey Lovlies!

Okay, I wanted to share with you a few samples of what I have been shooting thus far. I'm working on a project, can't say much about it now, but here are a few test shots throughout my daily errands , random events, and observations of great scenery. Let me know what you think, feel free to criticize, send me suggestions, tips, etc. Enjoy!















Monday, October 25, 2010

Concluding A Never Ending

They have given their hearts, in exchange they expected time

But as abstract as they both are

It’s inevitable that one side will be dissatisfied

She has shown him her all, and gave him trust

He exposed her to the world

And built for it a new pure lust.

He was her twin, and they shared genetic thoughts.

Absented from conscious effort

But enjoyed the coincidence as a blinded pleasure.

He cut her

Unaware, and She has dealt with the pain

Deeper the well became

Filled with tears of blood

And little did he care.

She wasn’t told that his time was too valuable for her to afford

She asked for a piece

She was given too much in the past,

For her, there was no more

Its logic humans run by and govern

Controlling the deeper agony and depletion of past pleasures

She asked for him to Set down his pride, clouded thoughts and actions of anger,

To become aware of his place in her heart as a constant lover.

Her soul is forgiving, as she’s tolerable of pain

Let her learn about herself

And as they grow apart

Let forever pull them back together.

She has spoken words of anger frustration and spit daggers to hurt him.

Humble, quiet thoughtful loving he was

Turned away from her and came back a stranger, and no longer her kin

We are human; mistakes are our subconscious actions

Forgiving we can be to be protected by loving sanctions

Let time tell our destination

Maybe together we can be a true completion

Till then they are placed in each other’s hearts, where no one can be mistaken.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

III

Simple ways to go from ordinary to a Better You-
  1. Get a Good Hair Cut: Know your facial structure, study it, well! Your hair, eyebrows included and (mustache & beard for the gents) makes a huge difference depending on how you style it, shape it, etc.
  2. Good Hygiene: No one wants a funky friend- Additionally, washing your face at night and brushing your teeth makes a huge difference.
  3. Eue de Perfume: Get a good perfume or cologne, that little extra scent makes a difference- Personally, I'm not a fan of gents that wear overpowering scents , there's something about someone and their natural body odor (after a shower of course)- but a little "umf" wouldn't hurt
  4. Make-up: Girls, don't get me wrong , I admire the whole , au natural look, but a little extra to accentuate your natural beautiful features wouldn't hurt, and it'll probably take a good 5 minutes out of your time every morning. Buy a good mascara, a little blush and natural tinted gloss- and you'll be good.
  5. Dress well: Study your body, your shape and know what works and what doesn't work for you. Things that fit well makes a difference. Also, not every store works for every body, just because its a trend DOESNT mean you have to buy it, something that looks good on someone else might not look good on YOU.
  6. A nice Watch: Is it only me? or does a watch make a huge difference in an outfit? Everyone needs to have time, although I believe its an external inorganic being that we've become obedient to, but hey lets follow society and have it stuck on our wrist anyways, it looks GOOD.
  7. Work-out, Exercise: okay so I might need to remind myself this more often than I should, but walking everywhere, getting a good run and cardio at least once a week, is a must. Gents, no girl wants a guy with a gut, nor am I chasing the guy with a six pack, however stay in shape, and look healthy, and cut back from the beer.. Please.
  8. Smile! you're on candid camera: (no) But smile everywhere, have a positive aura, feel good about yourself- even if you just got fired or failed a mid-term, Everything will work out just fine. Look at the bigger picture, always. This will lead to confidence, and no one will bring you down.
  9. Treat yourself: If its a good dinner or a nice new blouse- get something new and different weekly or biweekly. It'll give you something to look forward to and motivate you to do well throughout work, school, or whatever you do.
  10. Eat well: Please Please PAH- LEASE cut back from junk foods. McDs Burger King Wendy's whatever are Toxic! just think of them as poisons that'll be activated in 5 years and clog your arteries. You don't have to eat all organic, but know what you're eating, and understand what you're ingesting. This is your body, treat it well.
  11. A Good Read: Okay, I know, not everyones much of a book worm, as I've gradually grown to become, but read, articulate and broaden your pool of vocabulary.

Singer and Novelist Marsha Hunt



Tinashe- Zambezi



Andreya Triana- A Town Called Obsolete


Pop's fresh too.


Coffee/cooler - yum
Check more good foods, sweets, and drinks here


Joseph Gordon knows how to dress.
Afro-Modern

For the Gents. Check more from Street Etiquette here.



Hyper Realist Artist Ron Mueck at Brooklyn Museum.




My daily uniform. Jeans and a Hoody.



The Xx- Heart Skipped a Beat

This is Absolutely enchanting. The observation of two strangers and the power of pure lust.

Kate Moss

I think I need to reposition my desk to my window. This looks so invigorating. Nothings a better distraction from work than admiring nature from your window.


Gents, I hope you own a good pair of Oxfords- Pretty fresh.


John Legend & The Roots ft. Common & Melanie Fiona- "Wake Up"


James Blake- Limit to your love (Cover)

Original is by Fiest



Nixon Watches: The Newton

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition

(Speechless)



J. Cole- Warm-up & Simba



Waka Flocka- No Hands ft. Wale & Roscoe Dash
(Minus the Hoodrats, this is actually catchy- i'll admit)

Shoes & Watch.





Miike Snow- Animal

Chill and Laid back.

Classical Music. Love. Notice the Chanel logo in the back, This particular orchestra was playing during the Chanel Fall Fashion Show 2010.




Shoes , Love Love Love

Dope. Artist/Painter Francoise Nielly

Legit. Sabre Sunglasses


I want.
Vintage antique 1900's Victorian Edwardian leather lace up military steampunk boots



One of my other favorite hobbies, Arabic Calligraphy!

I'm all about Chanel Femme Eue De Perfume






The Whitest Boy Alive- "Fireworks"





Pluto was Always my favorite Disney Character, Mickey thought he ran things, screw him.




Vogue April 1, 1967

and So What if I Love the Kardashians, So What. Judge.


She's my Ultra Ego.
I Love Henna.




Ratatat- "Gettysburg"

Plad and neutrals or black = story of my life.



Bianca Jagger was one Hot Woman.



Something about a guy and a fitted blazer, not too tight, but fits .. Right.



Alpa 12 TC


Sia- "Soon We'll Be Found"



Jean Seberg







Snow White's my favorite Princess.







Stephen Colbert is My homeboy.





Eff the fact that they're men sneaks, These Star Wars Sneaks are , again, legit!



"Runaway" by Yeah Yeah Yeah's
I've been questing for a legit new camera, I'm getting a tad bored with my sony alpha 300 and considering buying something new. I'm like the footage from the Canon EOS 550d from this video. hm Maybe?